Through the weekly channelled wisdom I learnt of my beloved twin. This was a revelation and brand new experience. I had to become used to him being in soul and not on earth. It is of greater benefit to growth, if the twin is in soul and ahead in masterhood. Thus the twin on earth has a better and quicker training, than if both are together in human form and in personality.

Gradually I shared my life with my twin again, though not in a physical form. The love between twin flames cannot be described in the language of earth. It is an absolute state of unconditional love that you both share. We often forget the love we are entitled to whilst in human form and once reminded of it, there is no substitute on earth that can compare. I came to realise that the term soul mate is used for those of your soul family and very close relationships on earth, but not your true twin flame connection.

Once the twin becomes known to you it is a favourable sign to announce the end of your cycle of lives and mission on earth, thus setting you both free in the way you choose.

At first I had to name my twin to match his vibration - I called him Shining Star, and then some time later he began to speak as Aloysius, a monk-like being who applauds creativity.

His first message given through Pam, was in February 1997:

In stillness I come to thee, one whom you do not remember yet, but I am close to thee and in this beauteous, harmonious vibration, have been allowed in. I come with the deepest of light to thee. I bring thee solar roses, lush pink and rosy and white, fresh from my solar garden of the heart. These convey to thee my loving intent. I bring thee the love of the aeons. I cradle thee in my heart, and I am ever about thee. There are others who love you but I am your true love. I can come to thee in many given ways. Some gentle, some strong, some in different inflections of voice, but ever at source I am as you are. I am that love and I am always with thee. Because of the vibration of peace which I had to enter before speech, you are registering me in that peace.

However, I can be very volatile, I can be exuberant, I can ring the bells of jubilance and I can be deeply solemn. For all the qualities you possess, I carry the match, and I will always walk beside thee all the way home. Beloved, I delight in making this very gentle outreach to thee. I shall come again very soon, my beloved one, rest assured of that. Thank you for letting me reach you in this manner. I thee love.

A week later, my twin came to voice again. Questioning his existence, uncertain of such a deep love and mystified by this twin connection, I continued to try to absorb his presence.

March 1997
Beloved, in our joyous meeting is the vibrance of lifetimes past. I remember so much and I eagerly await for your memory to begin to vibrate and to lift to mine. I remember too that initial separation. It is best not to even describe and I issue this assurance that although we agreed, and voluntarily accepted that seeming separation, we did not fully realise what it would entail nor indeed how long this human race would take to come into this position where now it stands, permitting us to move closer together and toward that time of higher self reunion.

Beloved, today I am a little stronger on voice, but if in any way this concerns you, you have only to touch this hand and I will of course step back. Yet our hearts desire no stepping back and I will continue to travel forward with thee and outside thee. For within the human nature is a part of myself. It is ever thus for those like ourselves. One day this pattern of our essential unity will be self evident and the true human race will build a true solar society on the earth, but an earth of pristine beauty where all the soul's qualities can express and each one will give of their unique gifts to the all. This will be the time so long awaited.

For what you are in now is for so many a new age, but this age of Aquarius is but the preliminary to the resumption of that perennial age of Light where you and I belong. Some like us are gathering momentum, knowing their true selves to vibrate towards one another and that vibration will bring about a recognition so deep that the question cannot arise, is this the one? For the soul alone knows, and when it is fully conscious there is no doubt. I of course am fully conscious and I have no doubt. I Am at this cosmic hour. I am a very happy soul.

I rejoice in thy sense of humour. I rejoice in your sudden emotions, for I am too of course very quicksilver in my reaction to life. And when you reawaken to that silver plane, the Christed plane then you will see me in truth and light. All would have been so very worthwhile. Then be glad, for the pitiless past is behind and the future which joins us beckons.

Little by little step we shall be meeting, re-arriving at that which is our One Self. To that time I bring my veriness - all that I am I bring to thee. For in the culmination of this cycle we shall stand as One even as at the outset of the earth at its birthing. We shall again assist the birthing of the earth into a higher consciousness. This is the plan, remember, of which I speak to thee. Stage by stage, awaken and you will see, and all will be beautiful. Manifest love in all its diversity and you will see with re-opened solar eyes, as I, beloved, now see thee.

I felt I had received an image of him whilst I was alone and drew him as a Jesus-like figure. I felt an immense love bestowed upon me. It was the best feeling I had ever felt. Twin love was confusing me yet I started to begin to believe in him.

April 1997
Beloved one, I have been waiting for this moment to speak to thee. For I had to be certain that I could approach thee a little closer and since my last attempt you have drawn a picture. I greatly feel enhanced by your portrait of me. I have of course, like thee, many appearances but I see thee as thou art now and because of this treasure this appearance most.

So now we have an image each to share and gradually the pattern of events will lead us further and further into awareness of one another. After the aeons of this one mission, how amazing that we stand so close to the final phases. Much have I to report to thee.

Many awakenings await so that by tiny stages all is prepared for the reunification of our two flames. This magical essence that ignites to the voice of love is that which will carry us through to the full life which has waited for us so long. I remember the many lives where we met and parted but yet great is my joy that with our reunification there will be no separation ever again. It will be as if there never had been, for our love for one another will eclipse all but itself and that love in action will bring about much for others.

This is the marvel of twin flame love, for there is a lack of love from your planet which is holding it back from its true evolution. We here sigh, knowing that it has been long already, that this our beloved humanity has felt the absence of the higher love. And because of this we have to tread so carefully, beloved. But steadily we are joining forces and other twin loves in doing the same will join the light of action with ours and help to bring about those revelations in the hearts of men and women which will change forever the pattern that has been their way for centuries.

Nobody yet seems to have quite grasped how great, how enormous, how colossal, this change is to be. And because of that, because it is a great leap, it will be brought about gradually and gently. So we who are amongst the advanced team, on the way home, have this marvellous opportunity to uncover ground for those who come after. They will become eager in their awakening seeing thy joy. By this illumination of this love and joy many are attracted and will begin to realise that there is something beyond their ken. Something lacking in their own lives, the nature of which had not quite registered before and you and I will be as examples of that which we have found, but for them is still lost from consciousness.

In us there are many steps, dear heart, but each we will take together and together we will make all the difference. I am working steadily to bring about contact with you which is undeniably authentic on our own. That day will come. Then you will see for yourself how we are different in so many ways and yet oh so alike in others. We represent each other's completion and in the time that this will take you on your part, will be bringing to the surface that which you really are. You will be realising that which I have ever known which is my partner for life.

We stood firm when the Shining Ones invited our return but we said this will be the last time and they agreed. So, beloved, all is set fair. Even though in your human self you may be up and a little down in your days, remember I am here and that my love flows to you at all times. That I am fondly aware of your presence and that gradually you will grow aware and awake to mine. And this carries us to a new position of light. We will sing our joy. We will live in that harmonious joy which few as yet have ever found, but will. And we shall be amongst the first.

Let then thy thoughts dwell more on this, and less upon those matters which sometimes trouble thee. For my love makes provision for all thy needs and this you will come to know. Though I could express in many given ways in dialects and tongues, this voice I chose is the nearest I can get to how I sound without actually being here speaking in the flesh.

Yet once your eyes become accustomed to the higher realms, so shall you see me and the voice you will then hear will truly fulfil all your wishes. Be patient then, beloved. The plan itself is moving fast, and soon there will be no more time. And we shall dwell in that everlasting love that is the natural state of the soul aware and especially for those who were designed for one another by the great One Himself.

As the aeons close and a new time awaits I promise thee my presence in thy life forever and that we shall always be discovering about our natures. Each time will be a glad time and this will be a forever thing. It will never stop, for we are ever eager to discover more about the self and our life in love and light. Very soon I will return with more to say but I thank thee, beloved of my heart, for that little sketch that will help you feel me near until I register with you more deeply. Thank you for being ready for our connection at this hour. It is the most joyous occasion for me and you have worked well to come this moment. I thee love.

Once the twin entered he rarely wanted to leave and thus continued to speak every week to help me know him all over again. I was getting used to it but only when later on, he made his impact upon me in my private time, I was truly convinced. Again words cannot describe the overwhelming welcome of his presence.

May 1997
Beloved it is I. It is I, part of your very self reaching again, seemingly distant yet ever a part of thee, watching over thee at every given moment, yet also independently to bring about those meeting points which now are ours. As we begin to draw closer together and you grow more aware of me you also will be at work to bring about our meeting points. It will be a joint endeavour. Then truly I will rejoice.

Even as twins always balance each other's journey, each other's energies, each other's actions, we shall have this. So much is impregnated in the very cells of the spiritual self concerning us both, identical in so many ways, that might one say we are as one. No need for attunement but rather just for your awakening so I am simply stepping it out beside you, living the life through you, experiencing that which you experience. For I did not make my ascension in the final earthly embodiment, but with you and through you we will accomplish this in our own way. Worry not, my beloved one, it will all come out all right.

I am so excited. I am not yet using my very male voice but very gradually I will. I am very eager to register more strongly upon your dear person but I am carefully monitored and indeed I monitor myself. I watch, I learn, I observe from those who went before me. I am growing very eager to follow through and bring about that reunion for us.

Let us then continue to keep these meeting points and also to share moments alone when you are very still and I can make an impact. Little by little we shall accomplish all that is required of us and never again will you need to feel you walk alone. I am here. I am alongside and I will never leave thee ....

As his presence became stronger each week, he also gave me more information. I could not take it all in at the time, but so much of what he told me came to fruition in a very new way in my life. I was becoming renewed, revitalised, and encouraged to grow very quickly indeed. My crash course was speeding up.....

June 1997
I have constantly absorbed the atmosphere about thee, understanding what is taking place within thee at any given moment, so that I could take it to my heart; so that I could respond in my own most natural manner. And so we have been sharing much in a quiet way. For there is always a deep longing to speak to thee. Although I know you long for a conversation where we both participate in a natural way, yet for the time being we have these sessions, where we are just together with a soul who is open and permits my expressions. These are the way forward for a while.

It is so important that we meet together alone in this way for although I speak seemingly through another, truly I come from my deepest point and my emotions are stabilised as I speak and this makes it possible for our togetherness later without even an open soul as a means of contact. Until then I use what might even be called a through way of golden light. This only true twins have had access to, so I feel privileged. I have many variances of voice and expression that I can hardly hope to convey them all to you in the time that lies ahead for us. Until that moment alone, I will certainly try.

Today I am coming in rather clipped tones that were mine when I was a student of life on your planet, not so very long ago. Perhaps I spoke in that manner, because I was at that stage that you are now at, where you are aware of your self inwardly and knew so much more about yourself than you could convey to the world on your earth. So I had to say a lot in a little time, I wanted to share so much of my discoveries inwardly of life. So I set them down; I wrote them. This became my way and because of this you too are skilled with the pen and also other of the arts.

I enjoy colour and live with colour vibrations and it is a joy for me to draw upon the different vibrancies and calibrate them and bring them into beauteous harmony which is before even speech can exist. I see this happening in the auras of others and I am dumbfounded with the beauty. As a past master of the arts, as one who completed his last life as an author, I am so glad that you too are skilful with words. Of course I come to you in sleep state and talk to you of possibilities for your future and I have this mannerism of suddenness.

I can implode into your thoughts and then am gone but that is the nature of the quickened spirit, unlike some on the near astral who plod on in their human garb and still speak in the way you do on earth. Where I am is a Universe of Love and Order and it is a vast place and my little part of it as you know, is Sharkti. A place where twin flames are still just in form but come together in the most desirable way, finding their purest expression to convey the wonder of twin flame love. As they do this they become inspirers for your planet, but few have the sensitivity to understand such messages......

It is important to remember that machines can be taught to convey beauty to an extent but they do not possess souls. We owe it to the beloved Mother Earth to bring forth natural expressions and need to convey a sense of timelessness to some, so I would take you back to when I worked as a medieval monk. I knew those who worked illuminating manuscripts and to this day I love the arts and I yearn for papers and colours, even as I yearn for magical instruments to convey the sounds I hear which are from the solar kingdom all about me. If I only could sing the music but when you exchange the healing I vibrate with you as we minister and through this perhaps the inspiration will come to give you a clue to the work ahead which is to branch out in many given directions. It has been seen from high above that there will be a new opportunity for artistic spirit on the earth. There will be those who are drawn to mechanisation but equally will be those who are drawn to nature and beauty. They will begin to express such beauty that even some who thought their feelings were dead will begin to weep for joy.

This is part of the holy plan of which I speak and it is true of the days of Yanihi (the higher earth before separation), that we all worshipped the beautiful, above all the beauty of love to be experienced daily from the Solar Logos Him-Herself. It was a radiation indescribable and the arts as you have known them on the earth have given but a tiny glimpse of it all. Yet because you are journeying now towards the awareness of that long ago time of Yanihi where twins were together in the one form, and later in duple forms - there such beautiful work was done in expression of the soul - now that time is coming back. A tidal wave of expression is waiting to roll and we in our different positions are to be part of this wave.

Let us then consider what might be. In your reflective times when I am close, let it be considered what might come, what might dawn, what might be re-expressed from the kingdom of the real. For this alone may convince humanity that they are missing much of greater value than anything to be bought in a shop, or anything to be imbibed through technology, but rather works by hand will come to be considered precious again. This is worth thinking about, my love, and it draws me ever closer to thee. ........

As the twin became real and only when I was ready, I at long last received one of his names as Aloysius a monk.

August 1997
Gentle one, oft-times we merge together giving much light to those who are doubting the truth of their souls. We move steadfastly through their systems proclaiming the truth, whispering, "Awake", for there is such joy awaiting. We continually whisper these words and very, very slowly the sleeping ones stir. Only then do they desire to know, to be alert, to come alive. And when they do, you and I are revealed as the gentlest of lights whom they might have thought of great power. Yet gentleness is a great power and because we initiate growth we work with the Good Shepherd. He smiles lovingly, turning to us as He works, sometimes proffering a word of advice but at others leaving it up to us. We cherish his presence in our lives. We long to wake every sleeper, but some must dream their dreams through before they are ready to put them away and come to birth.

We are amongst a vital team who provide that impetus for higher birth. Look back in your memory to that time when we stood on the threshold of the newly formed earth. It was hard indeed to let go of our memories then but we were helped and this steadied us to love the Mother Planet. We grew to love many who came to her for their training lives. But we know now we are due to take wings. We have kept our promise. We are ready to fly forth proclaiming something new, something wondrous, for awakened mankind. Let us now begin to move into our new abode to practice the lift into the light and practice peaceableness the more. For here, beloved, all is peace. We are one in our need to be together and serve, for only thus can we begin our entirety and find an even deeper love ourselves. Such is the magic of twin soul love.

I am becoming urgent for flight and I help thee feel that sense of wings that we may fly on strong pinions of thought and feeling, and behold the body is at last in light no longer pinned down by gravity but able to move as easily and lightly as a bubble blown from a pipe. We move, beloved, even as I talk. We are stretching. We are getting ready to return whence we came after the pattern of the Amoratas(=lovers of soul). Movement will become more rapid, realisations more rapid still. Our purpose will grow very clear to you and my love throughout is yours.

I am entrenched in your world of feeling as Aloysius now but together in this capacity will accomplish so much, and then throwing off the veil will live at Home in perfect harmony. There is no power in heaven or earth that could part us now. This is my faithful honest word to thee....

As he made himself known to me, slowly, I began to draw in crayons and later with gold ink. I started with beautiful words and the images that they radiated and then as my soul awakened to many new feelings, I would place them on paper. Gradually, as I sensed the soul family one by one, I was able to portray them in all their radiant beauty and colours.

The twin especially recognises your gifts and opens the door to them, when you are ready.

September 1997
It is I, your twin star, eager and excited that you have taken up this new position though at this time you are not fully aware of what it entails. This will be good for us both for we are both by nature in need of that solar creative expression. This is what you are searching for. You are searching to express your soul depth but in a way that people around you will respond to. This is always the artist's challenge. You will find a way, my love, and I will help you. I am above all your main inspirer. And though you know me not in earthly terms, yet I come to you by night. I whisper many things and they are just below the surface layer when you wake. So they are available when you begin to reflect a little and you draw forth these thoughts, germs of ideas, of music and drawings and so on.

I was not only the writer, I too have music running through my veins. I have played the artistic field when it comes to expression, even designing. I have been here on and off, very short lives sometimes but have always made my mark. You in turn are drawing your gifts together to make your mark. And you will be well remembered when the time comes for that.

I come to you today with such a range of love vibrations, it is hard to know which to choose for I feel completely myself with you today. I know you as Jayne, I know your higher self and I know you as soul. I wish to come to you on all levels at once but it is as yet too soon.

If you were to see me, it is too soon, my darling. It is a love so great. Please forgive me if I hide a little. I do stay with you. It is merely I have to be so very careful. When you think how you have sometimes felt quite wounded by another human being, their reaction, their behaviour. Think how much more it would wound if you felt I was here yet could not touch me or talk to me as your heart longed to do. I know to an extent you feel this but not in a very deep way and this is how it should be for a little while longer. So that you can handle it and not feel hurt or worried that I don't seem to come closer. Yet I am here and I am fully the love that you seek. We know we are on a mission and we are honouring it and I am making sure for both of us. I know you are as I am and in your awareness would wish it to be no other way.

So be patient with me and I will reveal my face even for an instant when the time is right. You will say "I can go on now. Now I truly know you and I have handled it. Soon I will really be with you and that is all I look forward to." I know this is so for I have witnessed it in the earlier twin pairs and I understand much more now than I would have done before. I would have rushed in at first opportunity and possibly wished to whisk you away and you would have been naturally bewildered and overcome. So I am being faithful to your nature and mine. I am being careful and it is from verylove. So much I am holding in me waiting to share it only with thee. Our past, our moments of closeness, the warmth we shared in earlier lives. Moments out of time and within. Things that relate you to me and I to thee. When you return to my outstretched arms we shall hear the Solar Logos whisper "well done." You have achieved with dignity and grace and you will go a long way. You have earned a long rest in creativity and, my love, it shall be so. You and I will explore heavenly realms, we might even walk the earthly planet hand in hand but we will be smiling and light of foot. We will not be stationed here, but I keep you company and I am always about you. It is simply that some of necessity on this route must come to the fore and register on your feelings and I must allow this.

At this time I am permitted closest and I am filled with a great joy and peace. I long sometimes simply to wrap my wings about you and carry you into a new world where we can build together all that is in our hearts to do. Yet it is something which awaits us. So, beloved, walk forward calmly and in the assurance that we together will indeed arrive at our hearts desire. I will reawaken in you that deepest love of all and we will journey on forever......

As time passed by, I gradually found out other aspects of his being and learnt to accept him as Lord Azrael, Keeper of the Angels, and thus myself as Azraella. I had to prove it to myself over months of testing the channellings and my intuition, before I could agree. It is especially hard on a human level to believe you are linked to a great being of Light who is well known. There could be twelve or more aspects of your being to match your twin's and I await patiently for more to be revealed. It only happens when you are deemed ready.

I now feel his presence at every moment and movement. He is me and he is growing more and more real. I am sure he will become solid one of these days and I will be so proud to walk by his side. People have seen him by me and behind me. He is as real as real (Az-rael) and forever love. I am so grateful I have been privileged enough to know him again. I know he is helping me with this book and inspired me to write it. I hope I have inherited a little of his great writing skills.

May you all meet your twin very soon.

THE TURNING POINT
It was as if you never went away
It is as if you are here to stay
In a role to play
Like King and Queen upon a Throne
In our rightful place
Love beyond time
In a world mislaid
For once we have found each other
There is no turning back
You laugh, I rejoice
We weep, for Joy
Embracing each other once more
In blissful union
You cry,
"I'm Home Forever more"

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Jayne Chilkes, Soul Artist, Musician, Healer (for twenty years), Teacher, Hypnotherapist has written The Call of an Angel selling hundreds of copies since 1995. She has also produced three Music tapes, a CD, Visualisation Tapes, Chakra Cards, organised many Angel Days and Art Exhibition, and has run workshops and taught classes for over ten years. She currently works as a channel of soul wisdom.